when everything seems to be doing well, then you suddenly hit that bump in the road that would shatter the glass. That glass of that which you believe to be your reality- which you've been living in. Then emerges that truth amidst the shattered images of your futile imagination. You'll just find yourself overwhelmed and helpless. Everything that you believed in and everything that you've hoped for, gone. What to do? I don't know. You will never know what to do when the truth is right in front of you. No one knows what to do. I don't know what to do.

With that said, wouldn't you just doubt your capabilities? wouldn't you just doubt yourself?

I just hope everything would turn out well. Just well. It doesn't have to be in favor of me. I just genuinely hope that it would turn out fine.

I hope that i'll be fine.

i hate crying! argh:|

for the past couple of years, i've been blogging about my random thoughts about that year to encapsulate my experiences of that year.

this year, i won't be doing that...i realized that this year brought me too many wonderful experiences and these things are far too many for me to blog about:))

i'm just really thankful for everyone who has been a part of my life and who made this year so remarkable for me:)

thank you so much guys! thank you for being part of my life! thank you for making it great!:)

love you, guys!!!

here's to 2009!:D buckle your seatbelts and enjoy the ride:P

i finally got the time to do some leisure readings:) don't laugh at me, but I'm reading twilight just now. well, i just got so curious about the whole thing since people have been buzzing and creating such a hype over the movie. I'm actually liking the book! *kilig* anyway, I'm falling in love with Edward (and in real life, I have my own Edouard! ngek! hahahahahaha!:P).

i also got the time to update my itunes:)) I'm in love with Adele's song, Chasing Pavements! <3

"should i give up or should i keep on chasing pavements?"....<3!!!!!

A Black man runs and a nation is behind him!

Run, Obama, Run!

*those are air force 1's and they look damn great!!!:D

- yes...im studying, but i i'm taking a break:P

Anong isasagot mo kapag sinabi sayo ng CRUSH mo 'to?

1. "bakit ba palagi ka na lang ganyan?"
- deal with it! (taray!)

2. "ngayon ko lang na-realize..mahal pala kita"
- ako...dati pa!!!:))

3. "iwanan mo na sya. mas magiging masaya ka sa piling ko.."
- talaga lang ah?

4. "smile ka nga..cute mo kapag naka smile e.."
- ayaw ko nga!!!

5. "gawin mo naman yung homework ko sa math.."
- AAASSSSAAAA!!!! i aint yer yaya! gwapo ka nga pero tanga...sayang!:(

6. "sino crush mo? ako diba?"
- crush mo rin ako noh?

7. "i am so blessed to have someone like you"
- sige...papacanonize na kita bukas na bukas para Saint ka na!! yehey!:P

8. "why does Monday come before Tuesday?"
- check mo sa google!!:))

9. "may ticket ako sa concert ng linkin park, wanna watch?
- no thanks..pero kung La Salle v. Ateneo this Sept 6, sure!

10. "isa ka sa mga pinakaspecial na tao sa buhay ko... alam mo ba yun?"
- chos!

11. "nahuhulog na ata ako sayo.."
- wait...mabigat ka! baka deins kita kayanin, chong!

12. "i can't smile without you."
- awww...paano ba yan? you don't have me! lagi ka na lang sad?

13. "thank you sa lahat lahat."
- oks...no prob! bakit? are you dying tomorrow?

14. "wala lang"
- alam mo, walang "wala", ang meron lang ay kakulangan ng meron!:))

15. "ano cell number mo?"
- sorry...strict parents ko eh!

16. "shall we dance?"
- Jabbawockeez style? sure ba!!!

17. "pwede bang manligaw?"
- ikaw bahala! pero it doesn't mean na sasagutin kita ah!!:))

18. "mahal ko pa din sya hangang ngayon.."
- good for you...btw, why are you telling me this? STUPID!

19. "you were everything, everything that i wanted"
- singing bee? i know that song!!:))

20. "kelan mo ba ako sasagutin?"
- ngayon...tapos after 1 minute...break na tayo...game?1?:))

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Do you have a crush on someone?
- yeah:P

Matangkad ba crush mo?
- taller than me:)

Does your crush like you?
- YEAH!!:))

Do you think about him/her?
- Last time i checked, yeah! kaya nga crush eh!! duhhh!!:))

How long have you liked your crush?
- not counting!! ask him!!:))

Guwapo or maganda ba siya?
- HECK YEAH!!! * UUUYYY!! BLUSHHHH!!!*

Singkit?
- Yeah...but he's not chinese!!

When you see him/her, are you shy?
- hhihihihihihihi!!:))

Older or younger siya?
- 2 years older:)) i go for older men!

One day will you be with him/her?
- that day arrived already!

Ano nagustuhan mo sa kanya?
-everything! chos!

Are you comfortable around your crush?
- YEP YEP YEP!

What do you think about his/her clothing style?
- good:)

Will you wait for him/her to be yours?
- didn't have to wait for a longer period of time:))

Basketball player/soccer player/vball player/swimmer?
- shooter....former bowling-er:)) he plays a lot of sports!! AND LOVE!!!!:))

Sa tingin mo marami kang kaagaw sa kanya?
- YEAH!!!:)) girls and bois!

Kung hihingiin nia number mo ibibigay mo?
- kinuha niya from a friend...good job!

Eh kung liligawan ka nia? sasagutin mo?
- yeah:))

Pagnakikita mo ba yung crush mo..ehh..yu muyuko ka?
- oo naman!!:))

Nagkatitigan na ba kayo?
- yeah

Kilala ka ba nia?
- knows me well enough and vice versa

Taken na ba siya?
- yeah...:)) by bern!! chos!

Mabango ba yung crush mo?
-`hell yeah!!

Kakain ka ba ng apoy para sa kanya?
- bakit? intense naman!

Willing ka ba matutunan ung sports na nilalaro nia?
- marunong ako eh!! teammate!!:P teammate ko!! LOVETEAMMATE!!:)) corny!

Sa tingin mo magugustuhan ka nia?
- ata...

Ano ung physical feature niya na nagustuhan mo?
- bad ass look:))

Paano kung nalamn mong bading siya?
- hmmm...steads lang!!

Paano kung nalaman mong gusto nia yung friend mo?
- ayt... good job!!!

Message mo sa crush mo?
wala!

If you got balls, join the 9-ball breakout!!:P
get a chance to win great prizes!! 3000 php for the first prize, 2000 for the second and 1000 for the third:)

guys!!! join the event pleaseee!! it's for our sports management class!! support us and join!!! contact us for more details...0917-9686265!!:)

September 13, 2006
1-7 pm
Celebrity sports Plaza
sign- ups are required!!:)

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here's something that E.Z. made for my write-up:) cheessssyyy!!:P

Now this is a girl with a huge heart and big dreams! Lovable, thoughtful, caring and kind are only a few words that could describe the indescribable about this astonishing individual. Bern has this innate ability for making those stuck in a gloomy rut; forget about their woes and troubles. I don’t know how she does it, but she’s able to charm everyone she meets. I hear she does it with the flip of her silky smooth hair and the glint from her pearly whites when she smiles. You could actually call Bern “Miss Congeniality” because her infectious laughter and dazzling personality has won the hearts of many…especially mine. (Hehe) One thing that never ceases to amaze me though is this girl’s ostensibly superior intelligence. Did you know that this girl is a consistent Dean’s Lister? This aspiring lawyer and hopefully Bar top-notcher (No pressure Hunbun! ☺) is a walking encyclopedia I tell you. She definitely knows how to study and at the same time party (HARD). Bern is my favorite definition of the epitome of brains and beauty.

has yet to be edited:P

it's now the time to clean up my act.

i have to focus. focus hard and work hard to reach my goals and dreams.

hello there, sexy and gorgeous!:P the new grand sport!!!! *sheesh!* haaayyyy...see you in my dreams!!!

the world's fastest car had a face lift!<3

yes! that's right!

my one and only sister is the PT board top-notcher this year! she makes me proud!

to all those who included my sister in their prayers, thank you so much!

whoot whoot! number one, baby!

quote of the day: from mommy!
while my sister was jumping around...
me: ate! congrats! pakuha ng bond paper! dali!!!
mom: nag-number one ate mo sa boards para kuhanan ka lang ng isang bond paper:))
me: well, madaling utuin kasi masaya eh!:))

yes , yes and yes...this is the time of the year when college students (even HS students) take examinations that will define their future (or something like that).

recently, the results of the board examination for Pharamacy was released. Congrats Celeste Briones for grabbing the top 2 spot. We are all proud of you.

today, the results for BS Nursing was released and only 43% of the examinees passed for their licenses. Im proud to say that my cousin, Tony Grande passed and my childhood friend, Timi Miranda also passed the test.:) congrats! RN na kayo!:P

tomorrow and sunday will be the PT/OT board examinations. Please, please please pray for my sister, Bernadette Cid so she would gain confidence and enlightenment from the Lord above. Please guys! wish my sister all the luck in the world and include her in your prayers.

Good luck, my sister dear! i'll start my novena now! :)
with the wise words of Rob Schnider in almost all Adam Sandler films, I just would want to say..."YOU CAN DO IT!" WHOOT WHOOT!

i'm just busy now! you know the thing called "minding my own life"? yeah! that's what i'm doing now.

just so you wait and see...if God gives me time...let's just see what happens...

don't wait for that day to come...you might not like it...

just a friendly reminder...

just imagine this.

migraine, loss of peripheral vision, numbness of upper right half of the body and occasional trips to the comfort room for puking.

hot classrooms and 3-hour breaks.

long test tomorrow.

really tired.

unstable emotions.

...yes, it's that time of the month again.:c

a year ago, i was miserable...yes...i was! things weren't going as planned or i wanted to be. i'm just happy that i've met these people...my friends...my constant companions...my i-cry-to-you friends...the people who were there for me when i was at the bottom of the pit.

they were the people who gave me strength and hope. they reminded me of things that i can do and who i can be.

TRUE FRIENDS!!! friends who will never let you down. friends who are there when you need them the most. friends who comfort you and know you. friends who love you no matter what. friends who know the true value of friendship.

thank you guys...i never had the chance to say this. as i leave my years of being a teen in less than 2 weeks, i take this opportunity to look back and commend you guys. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.

to hans and rox: i love you two...so so much. how i miss the times when we study in Matteo 2nd floor; when we go to Starbucks Eastwood or Makati when we have 4.5 hour breaks; when we have lunch in SOM mall or we go out to places. I miss our "study" sessions in Starbucks Corinthians. I miss our MSP sessions together. I miss our montomery escapades where the magic happened:)). I miss our  talks about life and other things. I miss being classmates with you guys! I miss hanging-out and spending time with you guys. I love and miss the two of you!!!


To Mark and Penny: I missed you guys so so much. I miss our long talks on the phone. The weird escapades that we have together. The reality checks that you guys are fond of giving me. The times when just go smoking at some random place. Our Rainy-day-no-school gimmicks. I miss our manong Peter lakads. I miss shopping with the 2 of you. I love you to death!!!!!!

                                                         Happy Family:)

****well, i still have a number of people to thanks but, i started of with them 4. I'm really thankful for having them in my life. P.S. inuna ko lang yung 4 kasi may atraso ako kay pen and mark for not showing my face last friday! PEACEEE!!! wag nang bitter! i know you guys love me...chos! and as for rox and hans, i just really miss the two of you!! HUUUGGGSSSS!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

well, the first season of Gossip Girl is over. boohooo! It is summer time and the kids from Upper East side Manhattan deserve a summer break. It also means that we all have to wait for the next season for another dose of dramarama from the rich and spioled party people of St. Jude's and Constance. I'm sure going to miss all of the drama!:c

Well, i must admit that the last ep. was such a cliffhanger for the B and Chuck. hoohuuummm:c i love love love love love them both! i may say that I'm now a fan girl once again because of Mr. Ed Westwick! Ack! he is such a hottie! love it! BAD ASS LOOK RIGHT THUURRR!! Plus points coz he has a band. another plus point for being the hot and sexy frontman of the band! This hot brit just stole my heart! eeeppp....im such a fanny girl!! NYAHAHAHHAHA!:P
don't you just love them two?!? I LOVE IT!!!!!!!! Chuck is such a sexy beast!

Here's Mr. Ed Westwick as Chuck Bass<3<3<3!!! Look at those leather jeans and that skinny tie! PPPUURRRR-fffeeeeecccttt!!! meow:P
Ed with his bandmates!!<3 you should here him sing! His British accent is so sexy!
                  look at that hot bod! HOOOOOOOTTTT!!!! The frontman in action!:P

Ok....so much of being a fanny girl!:P so i've been checking out this one. Actually it was EZ who found this. This pair of shades is soooo hhhhooottt!!! that's T-Pain oakleys! love it! it izz offf zzzzeeeee hiiizzzzyyyy!!!:D
Still in New York, The girls of Sex and the City were back and they took the whole world by storm. I must admit i got CARRIEd away! I love the film. No words could explain how much happy i was while watching the whole movie. After four year, finally i got to see them again. I did cry during the last episode of the series. It was heart-breaking! Anyway, the whole movie was fantastic. 'Nuff said:)
I'm such a fan girl. Surprise surprise! Don't be so shocked that I do have a girly side! nyaahahahah! These are my guilty pleasures!

* well, i just thought of answering this one meme coz im pretty much bored right now. aurgh:c

Seven things you will find in your room.
1. lovely and comfy bed with stuffed toys and fluffy pillows:)
2. this electronic box that shows pictures and videos...and the thing that can play cds and dvds with a good set of sounds along with it. ENTERTAINMENT!:D
3. Second, my baby mac. loved it more because of it's red case::D
4. an extra clothes rack for more clothes space
5. some bottled beverages named absolut and kahlua
6. books and school stuff
7. dolls and toys and some gadgets

Seven relationship questions.
1. Do you like anyone?
i do like someone or love someone *chos!*
2. Does someone like you?
yeah...im actually positive with one! nyahahahahaha!
3. Last kiss:
:~* hahahaha!
4. Been lead on?
blah...knoez!
5. Been cheated on?
knoez!!!
6. Want a relationship?
i'm in one:)
7. Wanna get married?
yeah!

Seven things you can't live without.
1. water
2. food
3. people
4. knowledge
5. things
6. the world
7. music:P

Seven things on your mind.
1. what will happen to my sched this sem! aurgh:c
2. can't wait for school to start!
3. i need cash! i want to go shopping!
4. Jon Avila is so hot right now!!!
5. I love love love SEX and the City!!! them girls are love
6. I missed writing sensible things! yay for meeee:P
7. what shall i do next?

Seven other things - Do you...
1. Believe in God?
abso-fuckin-lutely!
2. Had a dream come true?
yeah
3. Read the newspaper?
yeah
4. Get enough sleep everyday?
too much sleep, i guess
5. Have a best friend?
not a big fan of that! i do have close friends! no need for a best friend!
6. Take a bath daily?
yes! hygiene goes a long way:D
7. Wish on stars?
yeah! shooting stars:D

Seven "have you ever..."'s.
1. Fallen in love?
yes.
2. Kissed someone of the same sex?
nyahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha!
3. Hooked up with someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
i'm not like that!
4. Been to a bonfire?
yeah! we made the bonfire:)
5. Ran away from home?
nope.
6. Played strip poker?
nope. ma-try nga:)) kidding!!:D
7. Pulled an all-nighter?
always! fruit! all-nighter for 3 straight days!

Seven things in the last 24 hours have you...
1. Cried?
nope
2. Had fun?
YEAH!!!
3. Been kissed?
yeah
4. Felt stupid?
yeah
5. Talked to an ex?
nope. don't have one eh:))
6. Missed someone?
YESSSSS!!!
7. Listened to music?
yeah!:P